THE DAY AFTER

THIS VD WAS VERY DIFFICULT FOR ME THIS YEAR, IT DROVE ME TO GO FETAL AND CRY HYSTERICALLY FOR A GOOD PORTION OF VALENTINES DAY UNTIL I TOOK A VICO-CATION.
THE SADNESS OVERTOOK ME AS I WAS SETTLING DOWN TO SLEEP AROUND 10AM. I COULD HEAR THE SUGARY PRECIPITATON HIT THE WINDOWPANE, THE SOFT BLANKETS AND SHEETS FORMING A LOVELY COCOON TO BLOCK OUT THE WORLD AND CARRY ME TO SLEEPYLAND. AS I DRIFTED OFF MY MIND BEGAN TO RACE WITH THOUGHTS OF EVERY HURT I HAVE EXPERIENCED IN THE LAST YEAR.
IT HAS BEEN A TOUGH YEAR FOR THE HEART, REPEATED BREAKINGS, USINGS, LIES, LOSSES AND DISAPPOINTMENTS. THANKFULLY I AM STILL HERE, AND FOR THE MOST PART SANE, AND MOST CERTAINLY LESS TRUSTING. I HAVE FINALLY ADOPTED SOME GUIDELINES AND EXPECTATIONS SO I CAN AVOID THIS WAAAH-FEST IN THE FUTURE.
I WILL STILL REMAIN THE ETERNAL OPTIMIST- SEEING THE BEST IN PEOPLE DESPITE EVIDENCE TO CONTRARY...JUST NOT ALLOWING MYSELF TO RISK OR OPEN UP TOO MUCH ON A ONE-SIDED PROSPECT. YOU HAVE TO ANTE UP- PERIOD. I SHAN'T BE THE ONLY ONE TO FEEL THE PINCH. I TIRE OF DOING ALL THE LOVING, HURTING AND CRYING- MEANWHILE THE OTHER PARTY IS TO ACT IN A MANNER WITHOUT REGARD TO HOW IT MAY HURT OTHERS. PRIOR BEHAVIOUR IS A GOOD INDICATOR OF FUTURE ACTS- YOU WILL HAVE TO EARN MY TRUST BEFORE YOU GET THE KEYS TO MY HEART, HOUSE OR CAR. MY DOG CAN SENSE ASSHOLE FROM 50 YARDS.
YOU DON'T LIKE THAT? TO THE SELFISH BASTARDS OUT THERE:WELL, GO CAN FUCK YOURSELF, YOUR EX, YOUR DOG- BUT DEFINITELY NOT ME.
TO THE LUCKY GUY I CHOOSE TO ACCOMPANY ON THIS PATH OF LIFE: HE WILL BE REWARDED WITH ALL THAT I HAVE TO OFFER. (ACCORDING TO SOME- THAT'S QUITE A BIT: BRAINS, EASY ON THE EYE, FUNNY AS HELL, UNDERSTANDS/LIKES MANY SPORTS, BEER & AIN'T AFRAID TO GET DIRTAAY)

HAPPY IDES OF FEBRUARY
SKWERL